Once again I'm writing a journal. It seems all I have been able to do for a while! Sorry about not giving you the support that you deserve.
Something bad happened. My long time friend Louis, had been severely sick for years and lived in a big appartment building. Social Services called me because he didn't reply to their messages and his neighbor told the superintendant that he hadn't heard anything for days and that a bad smell was coming from his appartment door. The police came in and discovered that he had been deceased for days.
They are conducting an investigation in the circumstances of his death. While his brother and I think that it was his deteriorating health which ended his life, we're not completely sure and I won't rest until I know the exact cause. I feel sad and tormented that he had to die in this way, all alone.
Sorry for writing something gruesome. The last years have been trying and I'm still hoping for a bit of peace and joy.
Love to you all